I was supposed to be on vacation, I wanted to go down to California to see my best friends but it didn’t work out. I might just pick a day out of this week turn my phone off and just drive somewhere. But right now God has put people in my life to chill with. The Ministry is busy anyway might as well get introduced to it early. Every other Friday a bunch of us meet and have reflections of the week. Every time I get asked I draw a blank. Sometimes I feel the presence of God and sometimes I don’t, but He is always there. Usually I can sit down, write down my thoughts and make them into tribunes and hand them out to people. I have been trying to write for the past week but didn’t feel anything valuable to write. I take that back I do feel something. I feel like a moron when I deposit my money into the wrong account and spend most of it and thought that it was in my savings but it was actually in my checking account. I feel dumbfounded when a person was woken up, started turning their life around and they jump right into it. I feel confused when it comes to the education of God dealing with an ultra conservative school. I feel lost to an uncertain future. Where will God place me when I graduate? Then I go back to the basics of Keep It Simple Stupid, Hutch. Freaking out to situations that don’t need to be freaked out over. All of this stuff is meaningless, these feelings of mine are Mickey Mouse doo doo. I go back to the basics of focus and direction… I fix my eyes on Jesus.
“and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith, who for the joy set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.” Hebrews 12:1-2
You see God has set before you a race. You have to run it; and it will involve effort and commitment. Just being passive never runs a race. God wants us to run the race, and finish it right. What is my race? I mean what I’m to accomplish? I think my race is to be like Jesus, to accomplish what He wants me to get done. To bring as many people with many to heaven, even if it is one person. Race is the ancient Greek word agona, a word used for struggle of many kinds, and a favorite word of Paul. We can only run the race as we look to Jesus, and have our eyes locked on to Him. He is our focus, our inspiration, and our example. Life has its ups and downs. And we have roadblocks but we change those roadblocks into comebacks. We experience trials and tribulations in order to grow and mature in our faith.
“Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything" James 1:4.
Our suffering develops perseverance; and perseverance will build maturity and maturity will produce character. So suffering is designed to make us better people. No matter what happens, we must never give up on our faith. Things will get better… I think? Yes they do. So I fix my eyes on Jesus and when I do this I know there is hope for me let.
