A conversation

Monday 21

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened." Matt 7: 7-8

On my lunch hour I head to the Clear Creek Nursery. Mark Gilman knew the owner and and the supervisor. As I was about to walk in the store in the distance I heard an echo "Hey Hutch, Hutch!" It was Mark yelling my name. He was getting bark. I ran up to him fast. We talked and he isn't going to our church anymore thats sad. We talked and caught up he gave some advice. We both said goodbye. I went back inside the store and asked for Sean or Chris, "there not here" said the cashier. "Can I get an app please" I told her. "Sorry I don't keep them here, you can leave a note" "where is his office" I replied back. She pointed and said "around the corner" I went outside and tried to find his office their was all these buildings and plants everywhere with slow old people (sorry no offense) I was in a hurry I had 15 min until I went back to lunch. I went inside his office Chris was nowhere. I tried to find an app but none where found.

I was walking back to my truck I was kind of down. Then one of the women who worked their asked me "can I help you" I'm trying to find Chris and fill out an app" "their inside the store" "the cashier said she doesn't carry them" I told her. "follow me" I followed her and she gave me an app. I filled it out in my truck and walked back to Chris' office to put in their. Their was a man walking out " are you Chris" "No i'm Sean, can I help you" Sean is the owner of Clear Creek Nursery and friend of Mark Gilman "I'm Evan Hutchinson friend of Mark Gilman" as I shook his hand. "Oh yeah he told me about you" "Do you have any dump truck experience" "No just tractor and trailer, sir, but I'm a hard worker and have references to back that up" "I know Mark told me and what he says I trust. Well I will call you when I need you" "thanks" I shook his hand and walked back to my truck. As I was about to pull out Sean stopped me, "Hey you like working hard?" "yeah" "I can use as a laborer and go from their, I trust Mark, when can you start" "I have to give my 2 weeks" "Great call me later" I shook his hand again and went back to work.

I called Mark and said "I got the job and I owe you" "you don't owe me anything Hutch just remember me when we get to heaven" "I will brother". I called Lane, David, and Bob my mentors. I'm going to drive for this company when I start working for them don't know. But I'm going to take a risk quit Westbay and give it a shot what do I have to lose? Yes everything happens for a reason brother and sister. People ask for different things and doors to be open. Maybe its a new job, healing, comfort, to be loved and hold, a brighter future, quit smoking, drinking, whatever it maybe, pray. I learned things the hard way, and learned a failure is not a person its a event. Lonestar said in one of their songs Mountains

There are times in life when you gotta crawl
Lose your grip, trip and fall
When you can't lean on no-one else
That's when you find yourself
I've been around and I've noticed that
Walking's easier when the road is flat
Them danged ole hiils'll get you every time
Yeah, the good Lord gave us mountains
So we could learn how to climb

I have learned and gained experience from my mistakes. I have seen the dark and have been threw hell that's when I know thats my finest hour. When I climb and climb to the top, tired and cranky crying out in pain and redemption to my Maker for being stupid. On that mountain charging my way up their I see myself again. All these years that I have been a Christian, I'm just starting to get the message and grow. I believe this God wants me here for a reason. God brought me to my church parking lot for a reason. I thought I had everything going for me, I was wrong and blind. I need to move on. God takes his time we just need patience. I have a adventure to live in the wilderness. Follow Jesus and trust in him and we will live forever in peace.

Heartache and Cigarettes

Saturday May 17th 5:00 pm

I take a drag, shift into overdrive and head out west on Highway 3 blaring Montgomery Gentry on my speakers. The octane boost that I added to my gas kicks in and I’m gone. I’m tired and sunburned from helping Daniel move his sister. So I drank an Amp to keep me on my toes. As I cross the Hood Canal, birds are flying but they don’t look like it their just not in motion…their free. I see the Olympics in the background their still blanketed with snow. I arrive in Port Angeles at 6:30 and check in at the Port Side Inn. Rachel is in town from college break, I have not seen her in a year. I miss working with my old crew up here. She and David pick me up and we cruise the town. Sunday afternoon I woke up and went to the restaurant where I use to go and ordered a cheeseburger. I went to the gas station to buy some sun block but it was kind of overcast so their was really no point. Free and Easy by Dierks Bentley was playing, I couldn’t help it I accelerated top speed down 112. I finally arrived to the Elwha Valley where my old pad was at and drove up to the lake where I use to go.

I walked up the bank sat down and I talked to Him. I told him I surrender all and everything to him. That I didn’t care about finding work being over the road. That I thanked Him for letting me feel pain and that He took the pain away. That I was blind to his will and that I wasn’t listening. I believe that God closes doors, lets us feel pain, so we can get closer and be stronger in Him. Everything happens for a reason. Then He opens up doors to something special. And when you find that thing you are looking for, you grab it and hold on to it forever. These past 2 weeks have been total suck for me. I tried and applied to 7 truck companies to get out of Dodge because I couldn’t take the pain. I have been turned down left and right. I waited to long since I graduated and companies are no longer highering new people because the economy is going down they can’t afford it. A lot of companies are telling me that I need to go back to school. That’s another 4 weeks to 6 months plus 5 grand. I could find work for some companies but they treat you like crap. Maybe God wants me to stay here and take it like a man and deal with it. I realized this, God wants us to love and follow him and love one another. That’s it! I’m a moron sometimes. I have Jesus! I have a stable job that I like; I have a roof over my head, awesome friends. I have been getting more involved with my faith and Church. Sunday was one of the coolest days of my life. This is truly iron sharpening iron. I talked to my best friend of 13 years who led me to God my brother Micah. I last spoke to him in November he just dropped out of society. Micah wanted to be a cop, he was going to get married but his girlfriend left him again. He was down and started gambling. He putted her before God. He wasn’t doing his will. He moved back to California near San Diego. God brought him their. He went to all these churches to find a one to call home. He found one and he is living with the preacher and he is an intern their as a youth minister! He told me that he was a moron and just finally got the picture. He doesn’t have a career either. Him and I went threw the same stuff. We talked for an hour. He told me to read Matthew 6. I have read this thing over and over before. I read Matthew 6:25-34.

"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]?

"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

I read passages from the Bible and I get the message but it sometimes doesn’t go with the flow that I’m seeking. Now that I just read this one it hits me in the face like a tire iron. Rewind, hold the phone, and slap your grandma. Why I’m I freaking out and down for! God takes care of me and you. I have everything I can ask for. Then I just read Matthew 7: 7-8

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. I pray that if it is his will that he find me work and if not great. I pray that I be a better worker for him. God has been opening doors for me I just don’t realize it. He right now is pointing me somewhere I can sense it. I just need patience I don’t have I really need help on it. When doors close it wasn’t his will I just need to face that and realize that.

I’m 24, 24. I have a whole life to live (God willing) I realized I’m a free bird baby! I have hardly any bills, no mortgage, no car payments, I’m not in debt. I wear shorts to work and listen to music all day. My next 20 years are going to be a blast! I adopted this I don’t care attitude. I’m going to try not to worry about my life. I surrender my soul to God on that lake and now I’m back and ready to start working for the Kingdom. I’m going to be a bum and follow Jesus.

Honor.